Day 8

I can't believe I've been fasting for 7 full days. The internet was right, it gets easier as you go along. I'm not exactly looking forward to 3 more weeks of this, not because it's too hard, just because... well, I like eating. I like playing on the internet, and I wouldn't look forward to 3 weeks of not internetting either. It's kind of like that.

I've been doing a sort of watery juice fast. Juice fasts recommend something crazy like 32-64 ounces of juice per day, but that's so many calories and I wouldn't even be able to drink that much, I get full after an 8 oz cup of juice. So I've been drinking lots of water, and juice once or twice a day. If I am feeling less energetic than usual, or a bit faint, I'll make myself a cup of juice and I feel great after that. Probably part of me not drinking heaps of juice is that cleaning up the juicer is so freaking annoying, I do it once a day and I'm like, that's it, no way do I want to do that again today. x.x but juice is so delicious. I think I will have pineapple juice this morning. yummm!

Yesterday was a good day. I went to see a movie with Paul -- a french film called Micmacs, by the director who directed Amelie. It was a very charming movie, with a satisfying ending. I liked it quite a bit.

And yesterday evening was dinner at Eric's parent's house. Eric's Aunty Kate was there for a visit, so I went along even though I couldn't eat anything. I sat at the table with them and drank juice while they ate dinner and dessert. It smelled really good, and I wanted it, but I just wasn't tempted to take any.
It was kind of awkward, though... I didn't like it. And it seemed like his Aunty Kate thought I was crazy, which made me feel shy and nervous... they asked me about what I was doing and I started to explain, but just was really shy about it because I guess the way it was asked, it was like they already thought I was kind of crazy and they were vaguely interested in what my defense might be. So I definitely didn't do a good job of talking.
I wish that, after describing the benefits of ridding my body of toxins and giving my body the energy to heal itself instead of digest food, I would have said something like this: "and even if those hokey pokey benefits aren't true, and I don't feel that much better or different, I'll have lost some weight and learned to better control my cravings for food and at the very least, I'll have given myself a new experience." But I didn't say that, and it was just really awkward.
I probably won't come for dinner the rest of the month. It won't be as awkward with Aunty Kate not there, but it's still a little weird for me.

And it's Monday, so:
weight: 93.5 kg (4.2 kg loss, or 9.3 lbs)
back pain: average. 5/10, 5 being the normal pain I experience, 10 being I-can't-get-out-of-bed, and 1 being no pain at all.
knee pain: no pain
shoulder: average, 5/10.

Factors to consider: I've been getting really terrible sleep. Last night I slept for ages, but it was filled with nightmares (first ones in a long while) and so it wasn't particularly restful. Hopefully I can catch up with sleepytimes soon.

And I guess that's about all for me. <3